Friday, January 9
Young Ones- 1
Thursday, January 8
Flowers
Song of the Character Unnamed
3 Doors Down
Don’t tell me what to think
Cause I don’t care this time
I walked to Science with my eyes peeled for him. It was just like any other day, rainy, wet and gross. But there was something about today, like most days, that gave me some warmth in my heart, and thawed my frozen being. To see him again, even just a glimpse, would warm me for all of today. No, I am not crazy to feel this way, but some people say I am. I don’t really agree, and there he is!
Don’t tell me what to believe
Cause you won’t be there
I watch him as he passes me by, walking to his next class as I stand and wait for mine. Damn it all, he’s so cute when he is wet! In a stalker like way, I watch him until he vanishes from sight, or I am simply late for class again. Oops. People tell me he’s a jerk-face, nothing worth my time, but he hasn’t proven my own theories wrong yet.
To catch me when I fall
But you’ll need me when I’m not here at all
Miss me when I’m gone again, yeah
I think about him all through the next hour or so, my thoughts elsewhere as I work with my team to win. Sometimes, I don’t even know why or what I happen to be playing or even who is relying on me to come through for them. I fell so hard, I might end up just hurting myself, but it is a worthy risk. What is life if you never take a huge leap of faith?
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again, yeah
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again
It’s finally over, the dreadful hour of wishing I could sit with him in a class we just don’t have together. Darn. But it’s all fine; I get to him for just fifteen minutes before I get sent off to the next class. Fifteen minutes might just be enough… but not for long. I can feel it pulling at my heart now and then. Why don’t you ask him to dance?
Don’t tell me how life is
Cause I don’t really want to know
I don’t want to love someone who doesn’t know my last name, but he is who he is. But I fight through the next hour or so, holding my pain tight inside. I don’t want to lose it all just because I wish it was he that I told “mi amor” to.
Don’t tell me how this game ends
Cause we’ll just see how it goes
I get out at last, I’m free! It’s too bad though, that there she is. She wants him too, and she says to me, that it’ll never be for me. My heart aches to dissuade me from the truth, yet… some of me believes it all.
Catch me when I fall
Or you’ll need me when I’m not here at all
Miss me when I’m gone again, yeah
Nobody was there to catch me when I fell. Now I lay here broken, without any way to pick up the pieces. I’ve been waiting, for nothing at all. I don’t even know if they miss me, going on and on as though I was never ever there.
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again, yeah
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again
Slowly I pick it up, put my shattered life together, and duct taping what just won’t stick. I knew it would end this way; yet, the pain didn’t stick around long. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be, if things go back to normal in the blink, of a single eye.
Now, I’m all the way down here
I’m falling
I’m all the way
I’m all the way down here
I’m falling down again
I’m falling down
I’m falling down
I’m falling down
I don’t look for him any more as I stand for my next class. Instead, I keep my eyes down, afraid that someone else might trick me with a mysterious smile. I hope someone out there can heal it all, from this one, to everyone.
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again,
I’m going down in flames
I’m falling into this again
I tell people now I am dating to keep them away, but I know my words are just lies. Give me a reason to believe, my eyes say, but nobody can read my heart.
Now, I’m all the way down here
I’m falling
All the way
All the way down here
I’m falling down again now I’m falling down
I can finally let my hair blow in the breeze, its safe now. He’s still my unsuspecting friend, and I am still there for him in his time of need, but no longer is my heart my last gamble. Now I can laugh and sing, as though nobody is ever watching.
Note: Not about anyone, just some random character talking about a past love of hers. So deal.
Wednesday, January 7
Open Your Eyes
You’re Not Alone
Saosin
It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
He looks the other way again, and I still see his eyes in my mind. They’re such honest eyes, I wish I knew what he was thinking, but he’d never answer, would he? He doesn’t know how I feel, he wouldn’t understand anyway. So why does it hurt so much to try to move on, when everyday, he stops me frozen and breathless?
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
Where’d he go anyway? I miss the old him, the one he was just a few days ago. Time has changed him I know, it has changed me too, but I don’t want to lose him now. He’s so close I could touch him, but when I try, he’s far away again. Nobody knows but me, the hurt I feel when I see him crumble like a weather worn stone.
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know
He’s giving up again, broken hearted once more. Little does he know he’s never alone. I am always on the edge, protecting him with my wings. My feathers were clipped, love, don’t leave me here, never to fly. Every now and then I catch his eye, and my heart flutters. Does he know? I don’t know if I want him too.
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
Here we go again, another lost fight, and still I wish I knew the truth. What is he hiding from? I stand by him every day, and every day, it hurts to see him give into this. Don’t let go now, I am still here for you.
You can make it out
You will live to tell
I think he might be coming through, but I fear it’s damaged him beyond repair. I wish I could say that I am sorry. But how could that heal the wounds he’s suffered. Could they really be by my own hands?
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one (but herself)
I wish I knew who I was inside. I just want to tell him everything, say all the words I censored, tell how much it hurts to be alone, waking up at night because I dreamt of him. I don’t want to believe it’s over, there has to be a true ending. This cannot be it.
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here
And this time I think you'll know
It may be that I get hurt all the time, and my heart flutters when I am near him, and each time we brush, electricity runs up my veins like a never ending fire. But I am happy here, all alone, watching from a distance once more. I would give anything, to stand beside him, with a sword of my own.
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
I know he can make it; he gets so much stronger every day. Now he smiles at everyone, laughs whenever he’s with me. I know he can do it, in my heart, I know the truth. But does he know about the secrets I hide.
You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
(There is more to this)
It’s the end, I can tell. The weeks of pain are done, and now I can smile too. Now we can laugh together, just like old times. Yet something nags the edge of my mind even now.
We're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
(So tell me)
He drives up late, knocks on my window. He climbed the tree, and snuck in as quiet as my love for him. I’m sorry he says. I wish I knew how to say how I feel. He gently took my hand. We’re together forever, it’s all right now. And I cried the bitter tears I hid for so long.
You're not alone
There is more to this i know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
He’s okay now, and everything is all right. We made it out of this mess, and now, we can face the rest of them together. It’s a relief to fly in the skies once more, but now, with my best friend by my side.
You're not alone
You're not, your not alone
Freedom never tasted quite so good.